Hallo all you happy people. How’s yer momma? Haven’t been around for a while. I had my reasons. Two-thirds of it are good…one third only slightly better.

The two thirds were computer trouble. That aside from my lack of one, but on the 20th I finally got my new Sony Vaio AND IT IS AWESOME. Superior to the old one in every way –wider screen, crisper imagery, moar diskspace, Vista, which I guess is alright- save for a lack of Bluetooth and an extra partition, but I’ll live without it. And somehow I managed to screw up a brand new computer in just a few days. Sometime after trying to install Reader on it, it started crashing every now and then. Been spending the last few days scanning, defragging, cleaning, uninstalling all the craploads of crap I already installed, and it -still- crashes! I was just going to wipe the whole damn thing clean and start over if it weren’t for the fact that laptops no longer come with installation CDs and I had no clue how to do that.

And then Viz the wonder techie comes along and tells me a Vista update has been screwing it up this entire time. Not me…a damn update, which is supposed to be good. *slaps forehead* So hopefully its stopped this madness and I can actually get some work done. I <3 u, Viz, yer amazing btw. Never would have figured that out. ^^

The other one third of me not being here was getting re-addicted to Flyff. Games- they is not healthy to I. >.< Currently a LV 36 Assist. I started when they had this endless EXP event and got lots of cool stuffs every time I leveled up. XD

…I got my driver’s license! Well, it’s a learner’s permit technically…BUT I CAN DRIVES NAO. …Kinda. I mean, I’d need someone to sit with me and still need to practice driving automatic. And aunt and uncle kinda work most of the time so there’s really never really time to actually drive anywhere…BUT I COULD IF THERE WAS AND THAT’S ALL THAT MATTERS. <3333

And the weirdest thing happened to me some days ago, I’m still trying to get over it. One day, a woman with a last name the same as mine added me on Facebook. I thought she was just collecting people who had the same last name, so I didn’t think much of it until she messaged me the next day, asking if I happened to be her brother’s sister. Freaky thing about it was that her brother’s name was –exactly- the same as my dads, except my dad’s suffix is Jr. and her brother’s is III. I asked her to verify if they were really related, and she rattled on a list of stuff that were undeniable facts about my dad. It pretty much drove the final nail in when the guy sent me a picture of him and my parents together. X_X So…in a nutshell, I found my step brother. At least I knew my dad was married twice before finally settling with my mom- that much my mom had the decency to tell me. <.< And I’ve known him when I was like…three or four, although its still pretty hazy and he’d stopped visiting when I got older, but I never knew we were related. And apparently I have, like…three more sisters from my dad’s first marriage, older than my stepbrother (and he’s like…28 now?), though neither of us know who they are.

And now I’m having mixed feelings about the whole thing- I’m glad I finally know the truth, but if I’d never left the Philippines, I would have never known a thing about my family, and that makes me feel…cheated. Something like cheated, but in a more depressed way. I figured everything about my dad’s past died along with him, since no one from his side seems to be alive and he’s an only child and no one seems to think its something vitally important for me to know. And I’ve –always- wanted to know more about my dad. My aunt was the one who told me everything- how she and my mom shared the same dad (they’re stepsisters), the conflict they had to go through because of it, how she was the one that introduced my dad to her (can’t believe my dad actually started as her cop friend), and a myriad of other things that very neatly filled the holes in my knowledge. She goes and tells me that dad was really unsatisfied with his marriages before mom, so now I’m unsure if there’s still some antipathy existing in that side. My stepbro seemed genuinely happy to have finally found us after fourteen years, so not sure.

Anyway, moving back to arts. Should be able to get back into it soon enough and finish things. Maybe practice doing some Flash stuff, too. Photoshop is being an ass though. When I started using it again, it would freeze up for some time after doing a few strokes on the canvas. Not sure how to fix that part up, but hopefully it’ll resolve itself when I reinstall it again.

*goes back to playing Flyff awhile*

~Taddle