...But now its starting to sound like a mighty fine deal.

All you homies down here in the state-side really have a taste for blood.I figured my thousand dollar budget would keep me out of trouble for a while, but unfortunately I've run into a number of unforeseen occurrences. Details as follows: passport replacement (because it completely disappeared for God knows where, why or how), birth certificate replacement (because the passport was my only US gov. issued document and somehow the one I came over with was never returned to me through all those airport trips. Mom kept the other one for some reason. *facepalm*), driving school course, diet plans (okay, this one was a bit of a splurge, but necessary since I won't be accepted in the army at my current weight), nursing continuing education lessons (for the damned licensing), and finally, the accursed laptop and its ridiculous 200+ repair fee. All those above ranged around 50 dollar purchases (cept the laptop, which did have a 60 dollar service fee initially and and additional 25 dollars to get the viruses out. On top of the 200 for the repair. Are you fucking kidding me?), not including the little personal things I have to buy for myself, which only constitute a fraction of everything else in total. And now I need to complete these things for my Florida license, including credential evaluation, the NCLEX examination and what other processing fees I have to pay. The credential evaluation alone cost some 300 dollars on its own. >.>;;

Its funny how you try to get a job to get money. But then you can't get a job unless you spend money to get the job you needed to get money from in the first place. What an amazing paradox.

So to put it in perspective, I think I'm going to need to get financial assistance elsewhere than what I wasted four years to learn. ~Vadris kindly suggested I start making some five dollar sketch commissions as a start, which seems like a good idea, assuming five dollars (or six fifty for those Paypal whosamabobbers) isn't too much for a loose drawing of my caliber. Something like this: [link] or this: [link] or maybe even this (its hard to tell with all the color there): [link] . And hey, I'm not going to be picky this time and say that it can be -anything-. Head shot, waist-up, full-bodied, big small, tiny, gigantor, plain or overly complicated...no prob! They're all five dollars! Except when you want to add another character into the same picture...that's an extra 2 dollars (I'm totally not doubling it. Its even less than half!). How about a reference sheet? I could totally do those, too (though I haven't made reference sheets that have so far satisfied me aesthetically, but has all the basic necessities down. If anyone is interested, they could let me know and I could attempt one for a fair price). And because I can get those done pretty quickly, I can save time for the hundreds of other important things I need to do (cause everyone else is of no help me). Worth a shot.

In other news, everything is all honky-dory, but EXTREMELY boring. My cousins are both in Miami (one went for collage, the other is keeping her company until classes start again), aunt goes out to work, uncle...well, he has his own important businesses to deal with. It doesn't help that the house is in the middle of a vast and lonely stretch of land , with the nearest market complex a good few miles down the road and no source of public transit to pass by. I could just drive....but then the passport thing took my birth certificate so it could process a new one and the DMV office won't let me take the driving test unless I had at least one of those. Talk about adding insult to injury. >.> Still haven't found the fucking thing anywhere, even after we turned the whole house upside down and searched along every conceivable pathway where it might have dropped. Aunt's pushing me to get a job so not to waste time while we're waiting, but its like every job I look up is being blocked because I don't have this certain certification or whatnot. And getting the requirements for these certifications take almost as long as everything else. Its a bit stressing on what to do first and no one to help me out with it. And sort of complicated with the commissions I need to do and the other stuff (like the Field of Dreams tourney) which need finishing. And doing it instead of dropping out (like a normal-minded person would) because I -want- to do them. I still love drawing. I do want to improve, and spend some time learning a new way to draw or color, but time never seems to be a thing I have anymore. Its making me cranky!

Mebbeh I should try being a minimum wage burger-flipper?

~Taddle